Whoa, Major Lows

This year has definitely been one of milestones and major change. Back in March, I went through a few of the more stressful weeks of my life, where I finished up my masters degree with my writtens, and then completed entry into the doctoral program. I also completed movement to permanent teacher license here in New Mexico, which is a pretty big ordeal around these parts. Now, I'm sitting here in my nearly empty house of three years, on my new laptop, trying to get tired so I can go to bed.

On Saturday, we're moving to a new house, on the other side of the city. Of course Las Cruces isn't HUGE, but to a small town boy like me, it is. So moving 8 miles from my current house is massive to me. It's been the source of some stress, that's for sure.

I think it's safe to say that, in my four year teaching career, that I've had some ups and downs. The ups have been great, and the downs have been bad. I think that I just about hit rock bottom this morning. I was sitting there teaching math, when it suddenly hit me that... well, I don't know exactly, but I snapped. I did get a little short with my students, but I made it up to them. The rest of the day from there was ok, but for some reason, that one hour period this morning, I considered just walking out, and I don't really know where it came from. Yeah, there's a lot of reasons, but those issues that I have with my job are better left unsaid here in the public forum.

I do like my class, they're great kids, and they deserve to be treated right. I feel bad that I haven't been putting 100% into my work, but I think that the combined stress of a new school year, starting a Ph.D., and moving to a new house, has taken a major toll. I'll be glad when Saturday is over and I'm settled in a new place. It will definitely be nice, I'm looking forward to that.